Wednesday, January 1, 2014

On losing and failing

The large pink cowl I knit, got lost in a day of shopping a few months ago, after being a daily staple in my winter wardrobe. It was the right width to pull my head through, it was warm and cozy but easy to open up when it got too hot inside. But alas, I took it off and stuffed it in a pocket and lost it forever. So I cast on a new one.

However, the new one failed to live up to satisfaction. I didn't want to make the same pattern again, since I didn't have the same yarn, so I decided to make a two toned triangle cowl. But stranded knitting with thick yarn for a sideways cowl knit as a long grafted tube meant I would be wearing something that had more in common with a concrete collar than something I'd want against my neck, and so I frogged it.  Then I tried a striped cowl, and unknit it when it was obvious it would be way too long. Finally I decided that I did want to do a stranded knit something and settled on a pair of mittens... and once I finished the first I realized it was too short for my long fingers, and so now I'm unknitting it and adding extra repeats to the complex pattern to make them longer. And then I'll do the other mitten as well.

Knitting a stranded knitting project that requires looking at charts means that it is not a project I can easily knit in public. I need to sit and spread out where I can see both charts (for the front and the back of the mitten). On my lace knitting front I have a shawl, but as it also requires charts, I don't usually take it out. So I cast on a mobius cowl that I'm knitting with the same batch of mystery worsted yarn, striping it and it is coming out nicely. Not exactly what I had in mind, but I think it will get worn once it's off the needles.

This is my normal knitting and crafting process. I make things and unmake them. When sewing, my seam ripper gets a lot of action. When knitting, I unravel and reknit a lot of times before landing on something I like. I am used to going back to square one and taking it as a lesson learned. Crafting has taught me about failure and how to overcome setbacks, and that when you lose something you've made with your own hands, the sadness is great, but there's always the chance to knit it anew.  Or knit something else entirely.